Monday, March 25, 2013

Episode 5: Wait For Me

"Lonely rivers flow to the sea, to the sea,
To the open arms of the sea, yeah.
Lonely rivers sigh "wait for me, wait for me"
I'll be coming home,
Wait for me." 


Unchained Melody plays on. But i dont see her around smiling at me. I look out for her, she isn't there. I have to get used to this. I have to. 

The question is, how? How do i get used to not having that face around me? 

She smiles at you and a warm feeling takes over your insides. She holds your hand and you feel like a king. She kisses you, your insides turn to velvet. Have you ever been with someone like that? 

I have. 

She was beautiful. She still is. 

I left home. She will too, soon. She'll be out alone, without family, without friends, without me.
But she'll make it. 
She's strong. Unlike me. 
She's brave. Unlike me.  

She'll make it. She always has. 

She wasn't just any girl. She was my first love. And i realise now, i dont want to lose her. 

So here goes, 

Dear Cookie, 

I wish i could hold you and tell you it will be okay. You were there when i left. You talked me through it when i was scared. You comforted me. So i thought maybe i could write you something explaining to you what you mean to me. Or at least trying.

I love you. I've loved you since the day i saw you. Even though back then you insisted i was infatuated and nothing more. I've loved you for the last three years. I loved you through everything that has taken place from then on. 

I love your eyes and the way you look at me. 
I love your nose and i love the fact that you dont.
I love your mouth and the way you kiss me. 
I love your hair and the way it falls on my face while we sleep.
I love your neck and the way you bend it while you tie your hair.
I love your chest and the way it rises and falls when you breathe.
I love your legs and how the feel when they rest on mine.
I love kissing your forehead when you're next to me.
I love telling how you beautiful you look. 
I love how you make me feel like a king, just by looking at me.
I love how I cannot imagine life without you. 

I hope you realise what you mean to me. 

You're the love of my life.

August 1st 2012
Aaron C